THE GOLDEN PERIOD

Why now, and not since the beginning? Ever since I wanted to write this blog I repeatedly ask the same question, why now, and not since day one?

I know that I am not a great writer. I write blogs just to share my emotions, feelings and memories. This blog is again a reflection of my feelings – the best feeling ever.

I have always felt that I am the most blessed being on earth. Having a great life before wedding is not a big surprise, as girls are the Princesses of a family. Having a beautiful “Happily Ever After” life is too rare. Only few will have the opportunity of tasting the heavenly fruit of both. I am one amongst the few.  My ‘Happily Ever After’ life is because of my wonderful husband who is now my everything and takes care of my everything.

Ever since my childhood I have hated being responsible. I have always been the youngest in the family circle (pre and post marriage). I have always been their pet - protected and pampered. Like anyone else or, may be more than anyone else, I hate to accept the fact that I am growing old, and  felt strange when I was called aunty from sister (didi or akka) by the kids around me.

It took me a while to accept the fact that I am in my mid-20’s and I need to be like one. While I was busy with this process, when I was mentally getting ready to be a responsible matured wife, I got a pleasant shock a.k.a ‘a surprise’.  

As mentioned earlier, I've always been the one to receive and never the one to give. From now on, I must start SACRIFICing my sleep, hunger, appetite, rest, travel and most of all - my profile pics, lol.

It all starts from DAY 1.

It took me a while to accept the mere fact that I was pregnant. Even after my home test, blood test and ultra sound, I always felt that I was looking at someone else’s result/baby. 

My Ist trimester went busy with morning sickness (not for long), dry throat, tiredness, light headedness, mood swings, etc. I felt like doing nothing and was doing nothing. Rather, I must say, it was a testing period for my husband. 

In my second trimester, it is now that I feel my baby. I can feel the movements, jumps and hiccups. I feel like my baby is talking to me – “Mamma, I feel hungry, it’s time for you to eat; Mamma I feel thirsty and you must drink;  Mamma you are straining yourself and I'm feeling uneasy; mamma, mamma and mamma…” Oh God!!! It’s the placental connection that’s doing these magic. I am now an obedient SERVANT abiding my baby’s commands. 

I must say, as my tummy grows my bonding with my mom grows more and more. The one thing that always comes to mind is her thunder quote… “When you become a mother, you will know”. I now know it mom. I am sure, that, I can be more responsible, submissive, polite, humble, sacrificing, can be a good servant, a doctor, a friend, a philosopher, a guide and whatever my baby needs from me, just the same way you were there for me.

Imagine a person without the energy to run a mile getting the ability to run a marathon. After shying away from responsibilities, I now feel like a new person. What I tried for 20+ years without success has been achieved within the last “3 months” – The Golden period. I cherish our baby as a Gift from God and a symbol of our love. 

Come soon…. “Can’t wait to kiss those tiny little feet.”